Jason still used to chat with me...his best frend hooked up with my best frend...i set them up..they are a really happy couple...my best frend and jasons best frend...i was happy for them....Jason and i met on a hiking trip.... at a hotel....turned out we were at the same hotel....i hung around with him cuz he told me to..there was a party at the hotel...we danced the whole nyt away....it was nice,,,,but everytime i felt his body on mine i cudnt help feeling guilty cuz he had a gurl n all...but wat the heck...my crush for him tht was kinda dying away cuz i wanted it to sprang up back again..
i couldnt help it..i tried to stay away as possible but it was impossible...we fell into the same hiking group....it was not fair...if god didnt mean for me to be with him then why was he hurting me lyk this??
but god does have a plan...i dno y i love Jason so much....i need to forget him...i need to forget him./..sumone pls help me....

Jason

why????
I never thot i wud ever get Jason...and yes i didnt get him...of course...wat was i thinking....oh god i dont know...i 1st met him wen i was really small...but ofcourse then i never thot of falling in love with him did i?? i was small...and then time drew us apart...then one fateful day he came to my place along with his family for a visit..i had not met him for over 7 yrs,...and i was not suprised to see that he had gotten sooo cute...so smart...i instantly fell in love with himm....but then things changed..we mailed each other and soo on..and then fate or wat i met this other guy hu i thot to be my soulmate and we dated for a few months..but he turned 0ut to be a total jerkk..
i used to mail jason....we used to IM each other...it was all good..even wen i told him tht i had a bad break up he was there by my side..comforting me...it was then i realized tht we had a very strong frendship...

my crush for him got even worse,,and then one day he told me tht he got the gurl he kinda lyked...i was crushed....jasons best frend knew i lyked Jason but cuz of the promise he had made to me he never told Jason...i dno..in a way its agood that Jason never found out,,,,cuz if he did and if he never had feelings lyk tht towards me...tht wud have been the end of our beautiful frendship...i treasured our frendship more than anything in the world...i acted all happy for Jason cuz he got his gurl and then wen i came to think of it iwas actually happy...i really really was happy..i didnt pretend to be happy anymore...
my feelings of happiness for him were genuine...

that was because i loved him a lot and wanted him to be happy...so if he was happy even if it was with another gurl i was happy for him...after all it was gods plan!!!!!

hey

Well...hey all u bloggers who may read this...i got the idea of blogging from sum interesting movie i watched....and i thot since its easier to type down my thoughts than to write it on a diary....i thot that mayb i should start blogging...i really perosnally dont care what other bloggers may think after reading my blog entries but i started blogging only to jot down my feelings sumwhere and b free..lolz..hope u got wat i meant cuz it didnt come out the way i meant it to be...neways al start....happy blogging to all u pple out there!!!!!!!!!